Just because I"m bigger than you doesn't mean I"m a killer. I am taken the wrong way very often by people, even people that know me pretty well. I am a little larger than the average guy, and most of my friends are average. It is a general assumption among most people these days that a person bigger than themselves must be mean and have no feelings or cares about other people's feelings. .
My friends are all afraid of me. They are scared to tell me how they really feel sometimes. I just about always get my way when we are out together doing something. I have never intended harm on any of my friends. I have always been bigger and stronger than them, and by this characteristic alone they have made an awful picture of me to be mean if not made happy. Where or how they came to this decision I will never know. As it may be, these perceptions couldn't be further from the truth.
At heart I am probably one of the most gentle, tender hearted, people I know of. I have a few close friends and my mother, of course, who know how I actually am. I hurt just like anybody else. I"m not made of stone, and if I get mad I"m not going to take out a crowd of people around me. I feel like I get cheated sometimes by my friends, or that I may be cheating them. Just because they are trying to keep me happy, for fear of pain that I have yet to implement on them. I have never even joked about hurting anyone. .
For example, I went to a party a few weeks ago and met some new people. They acted as if I would hurt them if they said something I disagreed with. They even kind of hinted around to try and see what my opinions were before they spoke, so they could side with me. I was talking to one guy and he asked me if I was with this girl that was at the party. I told him I wasn't, and with that he replied, "Good man, because if you were I"d stay far away because you"re a big guy and you"d kill me." I couldn't believe he even said that to me.
