Upon hearing those questions, I realized I did not have an answer that could justify those actions. So, I stopped doing those things in order to be a better example to him. .
Jerrick is a very sensitive boy who has had a great influence on my decisions. When I look at him, I can see immense strength and infinite wisdom, and yet he is only ten years old. Every night when I tuck him into bed, he has questions to ask me about life. The other day it was just about what his life would be like when he is my age. He wanted to know if everything in the world would be the same. Would there still be wars, and murders? Would we still live in Utah? If we do live in Utah, will everything be the same as it is now? Will he be able to go to college? I had to answer all of these questions with "I do not know". Then, I went to bed wondering what would the world be like in twenty years? Will it be safer for my children, or more dangerous? Because of some simple questions from a child, I have started pondering what I can do to make sure that the world is a better place for them. .
My sons and I try to read the scriptures every night. When we do, Jerrick has questions about almost every verse. He wants to know the details of these ancient prophets, and the times they lived in. He wants to know if he will ever get to see these men and women that we read about. Will he ever be able to serve the Lord in the same fashion that they did? Will he be able to perform miracles? He tells me how he is going to serve a mission when he is nineteen, and how he is, right now, going to do everything in his power to prepare. I think back on the time when I was ten years old, and I do not ever remember feeling so strongly about the church as my son does. It is a fact that brings tears of gratitude to my eyes, and I thank my Father in Heaven for the strength my son has. .
For a period of time in my life, I was inactive in the church.
