This action also shows his change by showing us that Siddhartha no longer has the patience to stick to certain routines- as he did when he was at home in his youth. Finding the Buddha in a garden, Siddhartha and Govinda spend an evening and afternoon in the " . . . Jetavana grove" listening to the teachings of the Buddha. Although what he has to say is all important and thought to be flawless by all, Siddhartha finds that the Buddha's " . . . doctrine of rising above the world, of salvation, has a small gap. [And] through this small break, the eternal and single world law [which the Buddha preaches] breaks down again" (32-3). This realization that teachings are not flawless shows that Siddhartha has started thinking on his own. He no longer practices routines of cleansing or chants verses in order to obtain a moment of inner peace. Once again, Siddhartha renews his journey, leaving Govinda and the Illustrious One behind, believing that no one finds salvation through teachings. Siddhartha was a deep thinker. He had found a flaw with the flawless teachings of the Buddha. He had realized that he would never attain inner peace through others teachings, but that he alone had to seek it. This is what he did. Stopping next for a lesson in love from the beautiful courtesan, Kamala. Because of this experience, he shed his Samana robes and became a merchant. He gambled and acquired riches all for the love of a beautiful woman. As the years passed, Siddhartha's soul became corrupted with characteristics of ordinary people. He relied on luxury now, when before he could have fasted or begged for his food. His goals were lost and forgotten until a dream one night awakened him and " . . . overwhelmed [him with] a feeling of great sadness" (82). Siddhartha, realizing he had lost his path, now decided it was time to get back on it. This stubbornness, as mentioned before, now helps him carry out his newly found goal.
