Sam remembers when her family bought its first color television set. Because her mom became upset when Emmett told his war stories, TV was one of the things that fed Sam's imagination. She had always relied on the pictures in her mind to help her see what Vietnam was like, but when they got a TV, Vietnam became a real place to her for the very first time (p 51). She and Emmett watch M*A*S*H episodes almost non-stop, and Sam makes an association between the made-up drama and the real life battles. However, she realizes that these shows, while appealing, are just fantasy. Although the TV death of Colonel Henry Blake seems more real to her than the death of her own father (p. 25), the fact that she begins to explore the historical events of Vietnam show that the television texts have failed to satisfy her inner need. Even though she's far from discovering the truth, she's one step closer to seeing who her father really was. However, she needs a more authentic and personalized model. Sam finds that more personal model in the veterans she talks to around Hopewell. In her first encounters with the vets, however, she meets with a puzzling inability (or refusal) to speak - "Anyone who survived Vietnam seemed to regard it as something personal and embarrassing" (p. 67). Even if the vets do talk about the war, their stories rarely mesh. Some want to ignore the past - some want to glorify it. Some tell her to stop looking for something she can never fully understand. Because their voices conflict, Sam feels that they can't be held as reliable sources of the truth that she desires. Another source of information about her dad is her family. Irene is hesitant to talk about her first husband. First she tells Sam, "I was married to him for one month before he left, and I never saw him again I hardly even remember him" (p. 167). She also displays some bitterness about the war and tells Sam not to make it out like it was a happy time (p.