Mentaility

            Confidence is a feeling of assurance. Assurance in its most technical form is freedom from doubt. It seems like an easy concept to grasp, but everyone doubts at least some aspect of themselves. It is our nature. Society has made confidence a hard issue to understand, because there is no medium. Most people are either too self-assured and egotistical, or so pathetically unsure of themselves that they can hardly live a normal life. I fall into the latter category. Although ironic, I feel comfortable in that category. Most people have a feeling of comfort in whatever confidence category they lie in, but very few come off as being "themselves."" To put it more simply, people can find comfort, despite the difficulty in being "who they are."" .
             I have found in my experiences that unless people are in the company of those they know well and feel comfortable with, they will put up a fazade around them. We are afraid to be ourselves, whoever that person may be. Even those who ooze confidence put up a barrier. But why are we afraid? Are we that unsure of who we are that we can't even show other people? Apparently the answer is yes, but I would put money on the fact that most people are unaware of their insecurities, especially the ones who come off as being the most secure. Some are oblivious to their insecurities, and others are in denial, but nevertheless, they too have confidence issues. In either case, confidence is a tough concept. How can that change though? The only way it can change is if an individual wants it to change. Find something that gives you confidence and work off of that. Even prior to that, realize that there is a problem, and everything will eventually unwind. Those who either live in denial or who go unaware of their problems never move forward in life. I don't want to be one of those people. .
             I went to the Metropolitan Museum of Art in New York City a couple of weeks ago.