So I used to see Corpses. Men with half their faces shot off, crawling across the floor" (Barker 12). The effects of war have caused Sassoon to undergo a serious internal conflict. The hallucinations are typical examples of Sassoon's inescapable memories of the war which have haunted him since and created this interminable fear; the fear of going back to war. This fear represents his weakness and thus; his emasculation. .
Being abandoned by his own father at a very young age, Sassoon regarded Rivers as a father figure. During his stay at the hospital, Sassoon develops a very close relationship with rivers due to the numerous therapeutic sessions that were held. Sassoon feels abandoned by Rivers the day he leaves for his three weeks vacation, as that day he needed to speak with him. He rushes down to his office, and finds his already gone in the early train. He feels very dejected. "A memory tweaked the edges of his mind The day his father left home. Or the day he died? No, the day he left. Sassoon smiled, amused at the link he"d discovered, and the stopped smiling. He"d joked once or twice to Rivers about his being his father confessor, but only now, faced with this second abandonment, did he realize how completely Rivers had come to take his father's place" (Barker, 145). As a result of this therapy, Sassoon feels loses all his manliness and becomes like a child figure in front of Rivers, he feels sad when abandoned by him because he was the only person he looked up to. Rivers turns out to be the only person in the hospital to which Sassoon could open up his heart and express his feelings, fears and emotions. Being abandoned by his father at such a young age, Sassoon never lived through the father-son experience. But Rivers filled up that emptiness, as he was kind, open-minded, soft-hearted and had a deep sympathy for the suffering of his patients. This is what enabled him to develop very close bond with Sassoon, to the extent that he now perceives him as a father figure, as man to whom he could confess and spill out his emotions.