Attending college has been the most significant event in my life. It changed the direction of my career and set goals for me to reach. The leap into college provided confidence in my work, which previously was riddled with fear. Before making the decision to enter Tulsa Community College the thought was like jumping from an airplane, everyone had there parachute but me. It is a paradox when an event can be the most significant and at the same time be the most horrifying. .
As far back as I can remember, beginning with second grade, I have had a phobia of tests. There was a dark, shallow, queasy feeling in the pit of my stomach when it came time for a test. There were a number of reasons contributing to this apprehension which I possessed; insufficient focus, motivation, and an extreme lack of self-confidence as a child. As I progressed through elementary school and middle school my grades were mediocre. I was facing the added damage of poor role models for parents, unable to break away from the chains that held me down. I was never given the foundation a child needs to be successful. School eventually became too much to handle due to certain circumstances and I was forced to drop-out. .
After two years of being out of school I decided it was time pull my life together. I set out and obtained my GED. That achievement at least opened the door for the future, if I was willing to take a step in that direction. Friends and family began to encourage me to set a goal for a college degree. I was hesitant for some time in making a career choice that would involve a high level of schooling. After a complete analysis of degree programs and student life at Tulsa Community College, I made the weary decision to enroll in college. .
On the first day of the new semester I felt like an astronaut landing on the moon for the first time, frightened and excited. Through the course of my first semester the professors that I had made an impact on the view of myself and the work I put out.
