Elisabeth Kubler-Ross once said, "It is not the end of the physical body that should worry us. Rather, our concern must be to live while we're alive - to release our inner selves from the spiritual death that comes with living behind a facade designed to conform to external definitions of who and what we are." "What does it mean?" I looked into mother's eyes with my most innocent face, suddenly, her eyes narrowed with sadness. She closed her mouth tight then turned around and looked into the sun, that at any moment was to disappear into the night. "Death?" she murmured, then turned back momentarily and forced a smile that I didn't comprehend. She didn't say another word, just thoughtfully grabbed my little hand while we continued walking. I didn't ask another question, enjoying the warmth her coarse big hand around mine. .
Unnoticed, the incident began to grow in my heart. What is death? Why mother had such an expression of what I haven't seen before? Slowly, as I grow up, as the seed grows, my sense and my experience become the manure and water urging it to develop. Finally, in the presence of today, I begin to understand the meaning of death and why mother doesn't talk about it. Life is such a short span, the moment you were born into this world, is precisely when the clock counts down the time of our inevitable doomed death. With that the reality of leaving this world, abandoning and forgetting all that you once cared about. The relationships of love and dreams. The future is so unpredictable, at this moment you are alive but it may be the next moment that you will confront the judge of death. Our life is short and fragile; any sign could bring our life away. It may be because of it, that our life is so valuable. At this time, my journey is just to begin, a time of responsibility, pressure, fear, excitement and death. Even though we don't want to admit it, but on one axis I don't regret that I have once lived in this world, what I want to do before I die has become the only spiritual pillar to support me to continue my journey.
