Mariah had simply come to New York in one pair of clothing which was a short jacket, a pair of black stretch pants, and a pair of laced up shoes that was her mother's. She had no money to buy shoes so in the wintertime she would basically walk in the snow with holes in her shoes.
Mariah had many jobs but they didn't last long. She held jobs as a coat-check girl, a hair sweeper in a beauty salon (which she quit after two days when the manager wanted to change her name to echo), and a waitress. As a waitress she was very bad at it. She would be rude to customers, mess up orders, and anything else you can imagine. Mariah had said on a VH1 interview one time," I had this real bad attitude when I used to work. I would think to myself why am I here? I want to be in a studio singing and doing my own thing." During her breaks at work she would sit down and write lyrics to her songs so it would help her get stuff off her mind and to keep on working no matter what kind of day she was having. (Croft).
Mariah had no interest at this time to date anyone. She was too focus on trying to get a record deal and making an album. She didn't want anything to distract her dream. For about a year Mariah would go to studios and would go as far to the receptionist desk handing them a demo tape. But she got rejected by many companies or never heard from them. It was very disappointing to her. She was starting to loose her faith of ever getting noticed. Though in 1988, things began to pick up. Mariah's brother had worked as a doorman at a local hot spot. By there he was able to get connections by the club owner that would book Mariah to perform on slow nights. Mariah was scared and excited at the same time. Mariah was scared because she had a big phobia being onstage ever since she was a little girl. Finally thinking it over she had decided to go for two reasons. One being it would help her get over her fears of phobia and second you never knew who would be in the audience, maybe someone that could get her famous.