I know my feelings have not been obvious but ever since your jug flew across the room and made contact with my body, I knew I was caught forever. I love you Tessa Gray with a passion that burns a hole in my heart every time I see you. You were the only one to see past my facade and not judge me because of it. You are the only one I ever want and I will cherish you forever, until the end of time if you just accept my hand in marriage I will be your knight in shining armor to your Rapunzel. I am blinded by my love for you but I know of the love that my best friend has for you. I know that he has proposed to you and that you have accepted his love. But I can't bear the thought of you away from me. I know if I am the reason your marriage with Jem is broken, then the whole shadow hunter society will look down upon our marriage and Jem will be heartbroken. It will wreck my relationship with my brother, my parabatai. Our marriage would be the talk of the town and pasted on as a life lesson and made into a book called "What Not to Do When You Grow Up." You would be known as the one who married the parabatai of her soon to be husband and I would be known as the one who stole his parabatai fiancée. But I understand he got to you first and asked you first before I can. Even though I am in second place, how can I not bring you happiness? We may be young but if you know you love someone as much as I love you, there is no question that we will live together everyday loving each other a little bit more than the last.
Being your husband would bring both of us great pleasure. We are compatible in every aspect. I love classical literature and you love classical literature. I can be the one to protect you from any harm. I can be Chinggis Khan and annihilate anything and everything that harms any aspect of you. Even a fly could not land on your skin before I destroy it with my sharp dagger.