Who am I to say that the ways in which I feel about myself are the ways people see me? I hope that in good time, I will be able to answer that question. I hope that I appear on the outside, the way I am on the inside. The real Kristen should be the person coming from the inside out, as opposed to the outside in. There is a person inside of me which no one really knows that is a good person, a person whom should be known. .
I, see myself as a person who will speak what is on my mind at any given time, regardless of the situation. I can come off to some people as a very aggressive person, but I see myself more competitive opposed to aggressive. Competitiveness can be a good thing given correct circumstances. I see myself as a very passionate person; I am very passionate about my family, friends, things in which I enjoy doing, but first and foremost God. I am very loud, and can be obnoxious and overwhelming at times, but for the most part just outgoing. When I have to think about things that I cherish about myself, I tend to feel like I am being extremely vain. My best qualities consist of being kind, and big-hearted. I see myself not as those around me see me, but as I am.
How I feel about myself and how I see myself, as odd as this may sound, I see and feel completely different about the two aspects. I feel sometimes as though I am not good enough for society's image of the "perfect" teenage girl. I am nowhere near perfect, so I have been forced to come to that harsh realization. Generally I find it easier for me to pin point on the things which need to be improved upon, because when I do this I no longer arrogant. With me there is alwsy room for improvement. Ugliness and laziness are things in which I feel often. I feel as though there are too many things about myself that I wish I could change. I wish I felt as comfortable with myself as I appear to. I have feelings of being scared that I don't know where life is going to take me.
