This is one of the first times that Meursault exhibits any sort of fear or anxiety. It seems that it is only with his own death that he can realize and feel the true meaning of the situations he is in. Over the course of the novel, Meursault transforms from an indifferent person to an emotionally aware being. It is only when he himself must suffer that this side of him comes out.
Throughout The Stranger, Meursault transforms and begins to develop meaningful memories about the meaning of his life. In Part 1, all of his memories lack meaning. He can only remember trivial things such as clothing and appearances. At the funeral home, a man asks Meursault about his late mother, saying "was she old?" (16). Meursault is unable to remember this important detail about his mother and can only reply "Fairly"; he "[doesn't] know the exact number" (16). In addition, Meursault mentions that at the funeral, "everything seemed to happen so fast" that he was unable to "remember any of it anymore" (17). However, ironically, he is able to remember such details such as how the "big tears of frustration were streaming down [Perez's] face" (18). This memory is rather meaningless when compared to those that one would have of a parent's funeral. Meursault is much more interested in trivial details about strangers. He spends an entire day watching the people on the streets outside his apartment. He remembers details about individuals and recognizes faces. As the book proceeds into Part 2, Meursault begins to develop meaningful memories about his life. He remembers profound statements made by his mother. For example, he says that it was "one of Maman's ideas that after a while you could get used to anything" (77). In addition, he remembers how "Maman used to say that you could always find something to be happy .
about"(113). Meursault comes to adopt these principles which he remembers from his mother.