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My sorrow I could not awaken. .
My heart to joy at the same to me. .
And all I loved, I loved alone (Regan, Robert Pg. 56).
For the first time ever, Poe fell in love. Her name was Jane Stanard, she was the mother of his friend Robert. Anytime he was having trouble at home, he would find her sympathy and comfort. Unfortunately Jane died at twenty-eight. Poe suffered yet another loss. Perhaps the only mother Poe would ever know personally, died. Soon after Jane's death, Poe wrote a poem for Jane. He changed the name to Helen for unknown reasons. .
Helen-.
Thy beauty is to me like those of Nicean barks of yore, .
that gently oe"r a perfumed sea, .
the weary way -worn wonderer bore to his own native shore.
In 1825, the year after Jane's death, Poe fell in love with and became secretly engaged to Elmyra Royster, the fifteen year old daughter of his neighbor. Elmira's father would not permit her to marry Edgar because he believed that the two were too young. Thus they were not wed. This was yet again another major disappointment in Poe's life (Allen, Gullette Pg.17). Poe once talked about the apparitions of his nightmares: "The most horrible thing he could remember as a boy was the ice-cold hand laid upon his face while in bed." Later he confessed. "I still dislike the dark. I believe the demons take advantage of the night to mislead the unwary. Although, you know, I don't believe in them." These "demons" apparently haunted Poe all of his life. Not only in his every day activities, but in his writings (Harold, Bloom Pg. 9). .
In February 1826, Poe entered the University of Virginia at Charlottesville. At the University of Virginia, there was no church on campus. This absence of religion was most likely where Poe abandoned the beliefs of his childhood. Soon, without the restraints of family, religious observances, or faculty control, sports, drinking, and gambling began to take over Poe's life. Poe's life began to take a downward spiral at this time.