In any nation around the world there is always one thing they all have in common : Religion. All countries have a religion or many religions from Christianity to Muslim. Most people believe in some kind of god but there is a small percentage of people out there that don't believe in a god of some kind. I am one of those people. .
I first became aware that I was different then the rest of my family when I was seven years old. It was Sunday morning and we were going to church. When we got there and I went to Sunday school, that day we were learning about how Jesus came back from the dead. I can remember feeling a sense that I didn't really belong there. I felt so out of place, I felt like I was lying to myself and everyone around for even being in that room. What they were teaching I couldn't bring myself to believe in. When I mentioned this to my grandmother, she got made at me and told me to be quiet. She told me that it was a sin to say something like that about god. After that time I never said anything again. I went to church every Sunday with my family and sat through the speeches that I didn't believe in just to fit in and not cause trouble.
It was almost 5 years later that I finally stoop up for my beliefs. It was Sunday dinner and we were gathered around the dining room table for supper and my father started talking about god. I asked him to not talk about it at the dinner table and he asked me why. "I don't want you to talk about it because it's not something I believe in and I don't want to hear about while I am eating." My family recognized that I was serious and respected me for speaking up about it. .
Now no matter how people look at me when I tell them that I don't believe in God, I stand up for what I believe in with pride. It took me a long time to figure out how I felt and I wasn't going to hide to make people feel better. I now think that the reason I can't believe in God because I"m not a person that believes in faith.