Life for me was very hard when my habitat changed. One year ago, I went through a custody change. After living with my mother my whole life, I moved in with my father when I was 13. Now it feels as though I have been put into someone else's body. Since I am still going through these times, I am greatly amazed I am surviving.
After I moved, seeing my mom was very emotional for me. I had to go from seeing my mother every day to seeing her maybe 5 times a month if I am lucky. This made it hard on my life since I knew I could no longer go to my mom when I needed her. Now I had a new person that was pretty much a stranger that I had to go to. My father was really never there for me as a child. I mean yes I saw him on the occasional Wednesday and every other weekend but that is not very much for a kid. My father left me when I was about 6. Now it feels as though that is the same route my mother is taking right now at this very moment. I barley see my mother now a days so she has become a total stranger. All of these changes I myself a going through it makes it uneasy for me to see her.
Then, my life got very hectic when the house grew to 3 siblings and 2 adults as opposed to just my mother and occasionally my sister who has been on her own for some time now. Now some things are just like a mile away and every step I take towards it, it gets farther and farther away from me. The times that I want to just break out and be free from all of this pain and anguish it just makes me feel unwanted anymore. Now I have to l listen to my two-step sisters and my stepbrother just bicker back and fourth with me. At first I was like "Ok its nothing big. All they want to do is make you feel out of place and later you will fit in". Now after a year I feel as though the little voice inside of my head guided me through these measures I took with my life. For example if my brother or sisters want to just make me feel like I am nothing all I do is just repeat what they do to me.