A Past Will Haunt Me

I never realized how strong he really was until that morning.
             "Get out bitch. You know you kissed Kyle and don't deny it, I saw you." He screamed I could hear the jealousy and rage in his tone of voice. I started to feel fear coming on to me.
             He had a strong hold of my arms with his teeth digging through my thin white blouse. It felt like a humongous bulldog that took a chunk of my flesh off my very arm.
             "I kissed him because you and I are over. Besides you hooked up with some other girl right in front of my face." I was starting to cry.
             "Why should you even care what I do, you fucking asshole?" I cried with pain and frustration.
             As soon as I said these words, he grabbed and pulled my hair and probably tried to take a chunk of it. It was painful.
             I slammed his door carelessly and I just dropped in the middle of the road with all of my belonging at the same time. I didn't know what to do. I called my friend she wanted to come and pick me up and to comfort me but I insisted that she would stay home. She made me talk to her on the phone until I reached my house so that nothing else would happen. I don't know what would I have done if she weren't there for me. I felt like a fool of being in that position. I guessed I already knew that I would be in this mess. I had it coming, just a matter of time. My friends and family warned me about him all along and I didn't want to listen. I was a selfish person. Altogether, I was lonely, confused and angry all at once. I fell apart.
             He was always trying to tell me that he had the power and control of me. His powers were intense. He was emotionally imbalanced inside so the only way to make him feel better was to be tough. He always had a dark shadow over me and didn't know how to get past it. It made him get his ways with me without arguing. I thought that I could change his attitude toward his anger because I felt pity of him. I should have seen .
             the signs. It is extremely important that I should have been more aware of the warning signs of an abusive relationship.