"For the Lamb which is in the midst of the throne shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of waters: and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes" (Rev. 7:17).
It wasn't until I realized that Jesus' love brilliantly shone from within me that I could recognize that the horrors that defined my childhood did not need to continue defining my life as an adult. My journey has been heartbreaking and tumultuous, but in the end I was able-through God's help-to find a place of healing. This is not an overnight transition, but rather one that has taken me a lifetime and will continue to occupy the rest of my time on earth. My journey moves me forward, away from the mundane and into the realm of the extraordinary. And each new revelation brings more healing. .
The truth of God's love liberated my soul. After years of darkness and solitude, I began to hear Creation sing in the morning. I started to see the heavens as whimsically dancing to the choreography of God as he lay a banner of love over the terrestrial. My soul wondered at His majesty. I felt a primal desire to tear down the strong holds of yesterday, to cry out "Abba," and to be loved. I am astonished, wooed, by every breath I take, breathing in His majesty and clutching Jesus' offering of friendship. Songs of love celebrate my newfound joy in the darkness and in His presence I find a rest for my weariness. I am extraordinary; my life is one of restoration, and redemption. .
As a child, I always felt caged. Like an imprisoned animal, I felt trapped in my own mind. I wandered endlessly searching for identity. Captivated by the stories, I desperately sought His mysterious ways. Growing up in world of debauchery and shame for being born, I earnestly longed for His touch, the one I learned about in church. His name was Jesus, the name above all names, the one to whom every knee would bow and tongue would confess that he is Lord.