Fear

            
             My eyes slowly open, once again the date 5th May had come back to haunt me once more, bringing fearful memories in my mind. I remember the incident clearly the memory howls in my brain, making it feel as it just happened yesterday. I could sense burning tears furious yet heartbreaking tears slipping down my cheek. I clamber from my colossal bed and gaze at the digital clock beaming 3.15am. How can I forget the incident? It played such a tremendously depressing turning point of my life. I walk at a snail's pace to the window, bunny bears hand squeezed in mine. I gaze outside, not a light on in sight; everything was pitch black and muted. So quite that even a needle dropping would be heard. The sky was very shadowy only the stars shone. I wonder if she was one of them.
             Probably I am the only soul who's awake, no one would have even dreamed in their right mind the incident which happened to me. I am for certain that no one had suffered so much pain like I had. But I begin to think, my mind swirling with remembered hidden clips which send never ending shivers down my spine. Fed up of this misery I seize my pen and turn my candle on, light would fright me. The candle would ease my mind, it scented a harmonious smell across the room. I weep desperately in misery watching the candle and once again I see a vision. If only I had saved her. The trapped emotions inside me begin to release and I begin to write about my true story.
             Fear the lone phrase which exists in my mind is fear, every day, every week, every month, every year, my entire life, I have breathe in fear. Beneath my duvets I hide, shutting my eyes not facing my fears. What if for once your fear fade away, what if you live in peace not anything bothering you inside, what if, the prime desire in my heart. Fear is rather personal something which rests upon your mind, your heart, your brain, something you yearn to refrain from, something which can not be explained to other people, something which virtually drives you fanatical.