Ask almost anyone, and probably they'll tell you they've lost a loved one sometime in their life. Well, my first love left my life a month ago, and I am still trying to get over him. Handsome, intelligent, strong, loving and romantic, describes everything about the one I loved. Love is something we are all in at least one time or another in our life. There are many different meanings for the word love and many people interpret it differently. I was in love with the most incredible man ever, AJ. Every time he walked into a room, I felt excited, supported, protected, cherished, and completed. There are break ups in relationships and some of us will go through several before we find our true love. I had the joyous opportunity of spending 5 ½ wonderful years with AJ> .
The 5- ½ years we spent together was a lasting loving relationship. .
When AJ and I started dating we, never thought for a second that it would last past high school. I always thought we would just be high school sweethearts. I entered the relationship thinking, "Will this last-, but then that changed. Suddenly, I had feelings for him; I wanted to be by him as much as I could. The relationship went from "will this last-, to "Now what?- I was in love, scared, and unsure of myself. Wondering, where do we go from here? As months passed we grew closer and closer together. You would think after a while someone would get tired of spending so much time with a person. Yet, we didn't, we looked forward to spending time together.In March of 2001, AJ proposed to me. It was beautiful. There were white candles lit, the fragrance of vanilla lingering in the air, white roses everywhere, and a dinner that he prepared. I'm a very picky eater and have a habit of examining my food before I eat it. There was never a time that went by that I didn't which amused AJ very much. This particular night, he was more observant than usual. As I observed the plate, I detected something shiny, which should not have been on the plate.